This is a collage of different thoughts and feelings that occur inside me on a daily basis. They range from not so severe to debilitating. The panic attacks are the worse. When I have a depressive episode, I hurt physically and mentally. It’s hard to describe to someone who has never experienced depression. But let me put it this way. Imagine being so sad you feel like you are fading away and trapped in a void of never ending sadness? You feel sluggish, achey, unmotivated and cry.
Panic attacks are even scarier to me. I experience chest pain, breathing difficulty, blurriness of vision, dizziness, sweaty palms and a need to run away from a scary, invisible force.
Because people cannot see into our heads, I encourage those of you with mental illnesses to create a collage like this. Sometimes people don’t understand how you’re feeling just by speaking about it. Images remain strong in our minds because humans are visual creatures. Show your collage to your loved ones. Ask them to look at it and how they feel when reading it. Do they have a better idea of what you go through now if they didn’t before?